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Chilling

March 15, 2004

i'm about to have to go do time at a tradeshow booth, disseminating information about an organization Iam only marginally acquainted with. I don't really want to do it, but I volunteered and I have to honor my commitment.

What I really want to do is wander around aimlessly, listening to music. I am in one of those kind of melancholy moods where I just feel like reflecting, processing, and writing...which I suppose I can do after the booth sitting...but I want to do it NOW.

I've been thinking a lot about the current events in my life and the current events in the world. And how oddly similar that conflict feels. And how easy it has been for me to interact in a healthy way with someone(s) new. And how little difficulty I have had in trusting and loving and being warm.

But how there are feelings that loom. And there is a lot of work to be done.

I've also been thinking about external things. Conversations I have had here about digital divide issues. It's the same old thing over and over again, and it's an overarching topic - way more than can be successfully communicated by the term "digital divide." I've been thinking about literacy. About how it was so natural for Monk to learn to read because of the emphasis placed upon literature in our home...and how coley naturally learned to use a mouse and a computer for the same reason. And how kids are potentially "falling behind" before they even hit elementary school. Whole nations are "falling behind." Whole geographical socio-political areas are "falling behind."

And I'm thinking about Spain, and elections, and bombs, and Terrorism (with a capital T) and about J telling me last night that he was taking a test somewhere on the internet to gauge how easy it would be for him to emigrate to Canada. And I'm thinking of the breadth of possibility and the amount of power it takes to crush that...and wondering whether that kind of power exists and if it does, who has it.

And I'm thinking about people, and sociability, and being brought together for common cause - regardless of differences.

And I'm thinking I wold really like a nice salad, and maybe some pasta, and a cup of Spicy African Peanut Soup from Austin Java Company.

And I'm thinking that guy at the check point looks like Josh Moseley, and I'm wondering what ever happened to him. And I'm thinking about my kiddos...

And after all of this thinking, I still have to trek over to the exhibition hall to work the booth. And I'm thinking I should go put my skirt on so I can look more "business casual-y."

Hope your day is going well.

Posted at March 15, 2004 3:52 PM

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dru, if you ever dress "business casual-y", the terrorists will have won!! [/kidding]

i know that feeling well though. i knew i had to do something when my wife gently informed me that i might want to avoid showing up to work looking like a homeless person, and she would know a lot about that look as she works with that population.

i am really appreciating your description of your mood as it sounds pretty much like the mood i would normally be in 100% of the time if it weren't for all this other stuff distracting me and making me such a stress case. right now i may find myself with a [contract] job that requires not only a suit, but broadband out-of-pocket! scary.

Posted by: r@d@r at March 15, 2004 5:14 PM